Scattered.
Stressed.
Timed.
Pressed.
This is my life.
Walking the thin edge of knife.
Will I succeed, and press on?
Or will I fail, and fall into the dirt?
Forever working the menial life, just as a peon or serf?
I sacrifice some, to better others.
But only succeed in lowering them all quickly.
I don't know how I will fix this mess...
Seeing as I am already giving it all my best.
We shall see soon how I will fare...
Whether or not I will stay, or be cast far away from here...
The rock is hard,
The sun cold,
The chains that bind me are massive and old.
All I did was bring safety,
Warmth,
Hope,
Light...
Now I lie here,
Day by day.
Chained to this rock,
Waiting for the feast to begin.
They swoop down,
Eagle talons spread wide.
Ripping out my intestines,
Lungs,
Heart,
Liver...
The plight of Prometheus,
I now suffer...
Only just for loving others.
Let's make the world spin,
The floor tilt,
Vision blur,
And minds melt.
What's wrong with the world today?
Little girls, becoming moms...
Boys being daddies, or selling drugs near the Pawn.
Thugs and thugettes,
Bringing the world down with drugs and alcohol...
All the little kids who are being good,
Sitting in their rooms,
Watching TV, or reading books.
Never venturing outside the walls of their minds,
Always keeping their feelings in line.
Then you have the little rebels,
Wild and free.
Always in trouble,
Locked up and spotlighted.
Our world is made of three majorities,
The parents,
The good singles,
And the wild rebels.
Who are you?
Wh
I don't know why I try,
Every time, I know my gut is right.
Yet I carry on,
Hoping that my feelings are wrong.
All my heart tells me to do,
Is carry on, just carry on...
I don't know why,
My heart falls every time,
But it trumps my mind.
But yet,
All I can do is,
Carry on,
Just carry on.
I was right,
And she knew it.
Yet she used my heart,
To fog my mind,
And cause my plans undoing.
Carry on my wayward son...
But yet,
My heart stays true.
Never once coming unglued.
Even now, when my head is filled with hate,
My heart is filled with love that will not dissipate...
My stomach grumbles,
Eyes cloud over.
Mouth moistens,
Hands tremble.
You offer,
What I shouldn't take.
But it calls to me,
Come, follow me to the brink...
I answer the call,
But realize my mistake.
I stopped myself,
Before it was too late.
That side of me,
I sealed away.
Weakened it.
Starved it.
Cast away...
It carries too much weight,
Memories,
And pain.
I'm sorry I did this to you...
You're taken by someone else,
And yet I still try to hold on to you.
I cannot bear being away,
So as close to you I try to stay.
You love me like family,
But my love cannot be.
I had my chance,
But let it fall.
As hard as I tried,
I couldn't pick it up
The tears flow down my face,
As nothing but sad poems,
I cannot seem to erase,
Fill my late night moments.
My days are monotonous,
But the nights are the worst.
When I try to sleep,
All I can do is think.
And when I think,
All I do is weep.
I know, I know...
I'm filled with sad, dark, shadows.
I just can't see much light,
When I can't do anything right.